A year or so ago, sometime between mid-October and mid-November of 2013, the Lord gave me a word. As the end of the calendar year was approaching, people were beginning to discuss their plans for Christmas and also their New Year’s resolutions. Knowing that I don’t make New Year’s resolutions, I wasn’t sure just why the Lord gave me that word. I had heard about the “one word” project, where people chose a word to focus on for the year. After some time in prayer, seeking what God was doing, I decided that the word He had given was to be my one word for the year. And so began my plans for the new year - a year of hope.
The word that the Lord gave me, just the one, small word, was hope.
My family had just gone through a major crisis, I was pretty sure that things were going to just keep falling apart (which, to some extent, they did), and I wasn’t sure which way was up…and God said, “Hope.”
It made no sense.
But God didn’t ask me to understand.
He asked me to be still, to watch what He was going to do. He reminded me time and again that all that happened was not about me.
My only choice in the matter was how I would continue from that moment forward.
And that’s where I needed hope…and Hope. Hope that was, and is, the very nature of God Himself at work.
I chose not to move. I made the decision that I would trust what I felt God was saying to me.
It was terrifying, and I questioned that decision many times over.
But I determined to stand, being confident that I would see God’s goodness at work.
(Psalm 27: 13)
And at some point this year, I came across Psalm 71 again, particularly verse 14:
As for me, I will always have hope;
I will praise you more and more.
The dictionary defines hope as “to expect with confidence”.
When I determined to take hold of the one word God was giving to me, I wasn’t sure what I was hoping in. I couldn’t have explained it to you if I tried. I asked a few people if the decision I was making made any sense. No one could give me a definitive answer, except to say that I should trust what I felt God was telling me. Most people jumped in to support my decision in any way they could, not knowing what was ahead. In the tough spots in life, the ones who walk in when the world walks out are the ones you want to cling to. Like I’ve shared before, there was a lot of loss due to the situation. But God gave me hope.
I determined to stand my ground. I grasped on to Hope even more tenaciously.
There were times - there still are - when I felt like I was standing in the middle of a downpour while the world passed by draped in sunshine. All I could do was to put my chin down, close my eyes, and keep standing, knowing the downpour would pass. And other times it felt quite the opposite - that I was in the middle of a dry, thirsty desert, praying for some of that rain that had just poured down.
Yet, I stood.
Because in my heart, I firmly believed that while the main part of the journey truly did belong to someone else, my part was to stand in Hope and to trust God.
Many times, I reminded God of His promises to meet our needs, to never leave us or forsake us. My life looked and felt unconventional and I knew it. There were times when even I wondered what I was doing.
But when I stood, when I kept trying to listen to what I believed God wanted, Hope showed up, because God Himself is Hope.
When I went to a store, there would be a trinket or decoration with the word hope on it.
When we had to face the struggles, we were met with hope.
I found hope in random acts of kindness, knowing God had not forgotten me.
When a friend shared a verse that God placed on their heart, it was full of hope.
I saw hope in small acts of goodness from people who may never know the impact of their deeds.
When I didn’t know how to pray, I prayed for mercy and grace, expecting hope.
And expecting Hope.
Hope changed my life this year. Hope kept me going when I didn’t know if I could keep on.
And I believe that’s why God gave me the word hope for this year - because He knew I would need it.
Standing in the face of the unknown - and to keep standing - is difficult.
Maybe you find yourself in that same situation - wondering how you can keep going? Wondering why God is asking you to do a thing.
Dear friend, I do not have the answer. When I first started this journey, I wished someone could just give me the answer. All I wanted was to know why, and that things would improve.
I had a lot of people encouraging me to keep listening to God, but no one could give me the answer I wanted - the ultimate yes or no.
And that’s where the verse from Psalm 71 kept coming to my heart. It was as if God was reminding me to change my focus - to worship when I wanted to worry. When I filled my heart with praise, I found more hope. We can’t always determine what will happen to us in this life, but we can always determine how we respond. (And no, my praise, in this situation, was not to thank God for the mess I was in; rather it was to thank God that HE is the way through, and out of, the mess.)
This image below is what I started 2014 with:
You see, I wasn’t assured of anything at the start of the year. Only Jesus, and only hope.
As I took Psalm 71:14 to heart and began to praise God in my troubles He began to fill my heart with hope, despite my circumstances.
This year, as I have stood the ground that God called me to stand - holy ground because God met me there - God began giving back some of the precious gifts that I thought I’d lost.
If you are struggling, if you find yourself feeling hopeless and that the world is crashing in around you, would you consider the words of Psalm 71:14? I don’t have much that I can offer you - I don’t have the yes or no you need.
But I can offer you hope - life-saving Hope.
The Hope that not only is in Jesus, but the Hope that is Jesus.
I don’t know if God will give me a word for the new year. I am praying He does as this year of hope has been such a blessing. I’m praying that He continues the work that He is doing in our circumstances, and that His name will be magnified in all we do.
If you have found yourself in a struggle of hopelessness lately, let me know?
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Life can be messy at times, but there is Hope!
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